Two nations born hours apart ....
One broken into fragments by diverse cultures ,religions, ethnicity.
The other broken by varying perceptions of its sole religion .
Both suffering from the same ailments -
Of poverty ,corruption and dirty regional,religion based politics .
Both nations in dire straits to keep itself together.
Two nations riddled with human loss from the same cause.
One nation rebukes the other for breeding these vile beasts.
The other lashes back with accounts of its own set of discontentment with the extremists.
One nation's powers-that-be puts up a brave face to keep its government together.
The other's does the same ...but to keep its people together.
Both nations pile up arms and ammunition on that thin line that separates.
Two nations that keep warning the other that war can do either no good .
One nation standing on the brink of supposed greatness-
The other fighting with itself for its very existence.
Both nations as diverse ..with people -both evil or innocent as the driven snow.
Two nations born hours apart..Two nations that sadly shall forever treat the other with fear and mistrust.Two nations that mock each other behind their backs. Two nations ..that shall never ever stop going at each other for land.Two nations that perceives itself to be hard done by the other. Two nations trying to kill each other.. yet professing innocence on face and lips.Two nations with varying perceptions ... yet suffering just the same.Two nations that shall silently ,sadly ... shamefully be always at war.. with each other .. with themselves...
Two nations that were born hours apart ...
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
A Dream ..
the warmth of the morning sun ..
the clear blue skies...the gently flowing breeze
standing on that green slope ..
everything seemed so pure
the world spoke to me in staccato notes
That moment was IT .. all that life had to offer was mine
That elusive quest of independent happiness was over
I was my own man ... that moment i'd dreamed of ..
since my infancy was here ...i let that moment enter me ..
Fill me up .. with all its rich purity and HOPE
I felt younger ... felt like i could run a thousand miles
And never get tired ...felt like i'd win ...
Everything felt so positive ..So damn Sure ... Nothing was impossible
I'd never felt such an attesting adrenaline rush in my veins before
Flowing through every fiber of my being ... I was ALIve
Yesterday had nothing for me ... A bad dream ..nothing more...
Only this moment mattered ... Nature ligated me with wisdom wise
Its dark rich colors and soothing ,silently soothing motivating motions
woke me up from my slumber of life .. I was MIne
I moved my feet ...went to the top of the hill ...
Before me the idle expanse of the open ocean ...
green and blue ... the rising and falling tides
undulating movements ... complete solitude ..
Inspiring Impressions ...of this HEaven ..
what was that wandering sound ? DAmn...
I woke up ...No more seeking .. I was Found
I didn't expect anything....No return ..
No more asking ... I am MIne.
the clear blue skies...the gently flowing breeze
standing on that green slope ..
everything seemed so pure
the world spoke to me in staccato notes
That moment was IT .. all that life had to offer was mine
That elusive quest of independent happiness was over
I was my own man ... that moment i'd dreamed of ..
since my infancy was here ...i let that moment enter me ..
Fill me up .. with all its rich purity and HOPE
I felt younger ... felt like i could run a thousand miles
And never get tired ...felt like i'd win ...
Everything felt so positive ..So damn Sure ... Nothing was impossible
I'd never felt such an attesting adrenaline rush in my veins before
Flowing through every fiber of my being ... I was ALIve
Yesterday had nothing for me ... A bad dream ..nothing more...
Only this moment mattered ... Nature ligated me with wisdom wise
Its dark rich colors and soothing ,silently soothing motivating motions
woke me up from my slumber of life .. I was MIne
I moved my feet ...went to the top of the hill ...
Before me the idle expanse of the open ocean ...
green and blue ... the rising and falling tides
undulating movements ... complete solitude ..
Inspiring Impressions ...of this HEaven ..
what was that wandering sound ? DAmn...
I woke up ...No more seeking .. I was Found
I didn't expect anything....No return ..
No more asking ... I am MIne.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
who's right ?
Is ruthlessness vital for success ? I wouldn't know.I have never been a go-getter...
Have always been propelled by the fear of losing ..as opposed to the will to win ...Would that will to succeed involve a certain degree of nonchalance towards our passions ?Sure ..some people can manage both ... but for folks like me .... (less brainy ones,lazy ones ) ... the word success accompanies with itself the baggage of giving up on the what i've been doing all my life .A forced change into an unfamiliar daily routine.
I want to change ...want to let go... want to be different ... But as S .Frued said people don't really want to to have freedom..because freedom brings with itself responsibilities.Is it those fear of responsibilities that has really been holding the real me back all my life ?
Some people are innately born with this desire to succeed ...no matter what it takes.
Others prefer to live in the comfort zone and not strive for it and appease themselves with the false consolation that in the larger scheme of things nothing matters ..success is relative and one only needs to be contended with themselves because man's desire for greater things will never stop .
Who is right ?
Have always been propelled by the fear of losing ..as opposed to the will to win ...Would that will to succeed involve a certain degree of nonchalance towards our passions ?Sure ..some people can manage both ... but for folks like me .... (less brainy ones,lazy ones ) ... the word success accompanies with itself the baggage of giving up on the what i've been doing all my life .A forced change into an unfamiliar daily routine.
I want to change ...want to let go... want to be different ... But as S .Frued said people don't really want to to have freedom..because freedom brings with itself responsibilities.Is it those fear of responsibilities that has really been holding the real me back all my life ?
Some people are innately born with this desire to succeed ...no matter what it takes.
Others prefer to live in the comfort zone and not strive for it and appease themselves with the false consolation that in the larger scheme of things nothing matters ..success is relative and one only needs to be contended with themselves because man's desire for greater things will never stop .
Who is right ?
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
can't wait ...
Can't wait for the 16th .. and start enjoying the simple pleasures in life again ... movies ..... good food....hanging out wid friends at park street .... driving (yes still learning ) ....reading .... anonymity ...can't wait :-) .......one thing that i will miss about colg are my walks back home from park street crossing or fort william ...oh well...can't get everything..... can't wait ...barista coffee ...chocolate sundae@ hobby center .. can't wait ....... :-)
Saturday, December 6, 2008
random post
Sometimes life has a tendency to kick you in the ass ..it makes you realise all the things you had taken for granted and assumed you were but in reality you're not . It comes as a rude reminder of all your incapabilities ..the shortcomings of character and the foolishness ,incredulity of you're thought process and you just wish you weren't so damn stupid....so damn useless. Those moments in life don't come often ..but when they do they tend to wake you up ... to the real world ..It strips away the false cushions ... and the sweet brutality of life is yours. These kicks do help.cheers !
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Here and Now
All i'll be is just a memory ...
an ideal quantity ..
Lost is an open sea ..for now
for ever..an eternity shall I be ..
The unacceptable proclivities ...
illogical ideologies .. No more of vanity ..
I want sanity ... In the darkness ..
Hiding from the psychedelic lights ..
No more a fool .. No one's tool ..
Shall I be ..
Fantasies ... Ecstasies ..Rapture..Bliss..
No frivolous delight ..Will I accept ..
No more damn lies .. No more of Untruth ..
All I want's the naked truth ..
Freedom .. Sacrifice .. All I want is to be free ..
Free ... from this Claustrophobic Society ..
And its rules... The System...it's killing me...
I want to be me ..
The independent me .. has to survive..
No more of me killing me ..No more walls ..
No more people...locality ..The open fields ..
They beckon me .. To get lost amongst 'em..
And find my lost sanity .. I want my freedom ..
I want to be me ..No loads to carry ..
No more fights ..Not me against me ..
No more..
Shall i be ..
Think less ..Do more ..
Make things simple again ..
Alone.. A light shone ..
The answer is here ..
The answer is within me ...
But i'm too afraid to let go .
an ideal quantity ..
Lost is an open sea ..for now
for ever..an eternity shall I be ..
The unacceptable proclivities ...
illogical ideologies .. No more of vanity ..
I want sanity ... In the darkness ..
Hiding from the psychedelic lights ..
No more a fool .. No one's tool ..
Shall I be ..
Fantasies ... Ecstasies ..Rapture..Bliss..
No frivolous delight ..Will I accept ..
No more damn lies .. No more of Untruth ..
All I want's the naked truth ..
Freedom .. Sacrifice .. All I want is to be free ..
Free ... from this Claustrophobic Society ..
And its rules... The System...it's killing me...
I want to be me ..
The independent me .. has to survive..
No more of me killing me ..No more walls ..
No more people...locality ..The open fields ..
They beckon me .. To get lost amongst 'em..
And find my lost sanity .. I want my freedom ..
I want to be me ..No loads to carry ..
No more fights ..Not me against me ..
No more..
Shall i be ..
Think less ..Do more ..
Make things simple again ..
Alone.. A light shone ..
The answer is here ..
The answer is within me ...
But i'm too afraid to let go .
Friday, November 28, 2008
Mr. kid
hey sir... can u give me a dime ?i want some food ... m hungry ... u know i gethungry ... dont u ? You're six feet ... standing with a cigar in hand...blowing smoke...wasting five bucks on a fag ... can't u giv me two rupees ...to fill me?No no... i wil buy food .. i won't give it to my drug addicted dad ... he's out anyway from the stash ... Anyways... as i was saying ..look at you ..with your college dress and your shiny face.... standing tall...with a smiling face... and here i am ..All small and insignificant ...a losing race... yeah you're happy ... you seem happy ..there's nothing wrong in bein happy ...i want to be happy too ..u knw... can i ? you know everyday ... i see you guys walking out ...with your books and friends ...and complaining about life.. and saying maybe its a waste... a life for rent... i know am small ... but sir... u are lucky you know... to be standing tall...with all you got ....someday i'l b like u too ...i want to learn and join your college too...i sweep floors now... and do random chores... i'l make something of myself... am just 9 ...i still got time... look at me... with my tattered clothes and dusty hair... bare feet ... i still got a smiling face... one day i'll join school...now sir... will you give me those two bucks..i just cant wait ... i promise i wont give it to dad ... oh look ... there's your car ...ul leave soon... its time to go ..u know...i don't steal... will someone teach me to write or read ? can i be like all of you sir ... ? someday ..i promise...i don't lie... i'm hungry ..i want to eat .. please sir... please...i'l even wash your car ... just give me some money ... i'll touch your feet ... sir you stand six feet tall ..with a cigar in hand.. i'm not even half your size... i respect you sir... please... please give me some money ... i will buy food... i promise... i'm hungry .... Can i ask you something sir ?I want to learn... will someone give me a chance ? i know u can help ... please sir please.. you guys are the best ... i am honest ... i may have bare feet ... can i be like u people someday sir ? in clean clothes...but rite now... i just want to eat ...just two rupees wil do ..pls sir ..pls ..
Sunday, November 23, 2008
A Thousand days ..
A thousand days to live... not die
A thousand days not to pass me by
A thousand days to rise... not fall
A thousand days to make a courageous call
A thousand days to stand up tall
A thousand days for accomplishments
To have my head amongst the clouds ..
With feet firmly on the ground ..
A thousand days to make me .. not break me
A thousand days to think..be logical..to contemplate
Let go of foolish anger and malicious hate
A thousand days to ride life's hungry tide...
A thousand days till I'm 25
A thousand days to gloriously spend
A thousand days of joyous work...
To break the trend ...
A thousand days to have a life
A thousand days I shall call mine
A thousand days ... a thousand ways
A thousand steps ...a thousand says
But only one thought counts in those thousand days
That thought is mine... To build a life
A thousand days till I'm 25 ..
A thousand days not to pass me by
A thousand days to rise... not fall
A thousand days to make a courageous call
A thousand days to stand up tall
A thousand days for accomplishments
To have my head amongst the clouds ..
With feet firmly on the ground ..
A thousand days to make me .. not break me
A thousand days to think..be logical..to contemplate
Let go of foolish anger and malicious hate
A thousand days to ride life's hungry tide...
A thousand days till I'm 25
A thousand days to gloriously spend
A thousand days of joyous work...
To break the trend ...
A thousand days to have a life
A thousand days I shall call mine
A thousand days ... a thousand ways
A thousand steps ...a thousand says
But only one thought counts in those thousand days
That thought is mine... To build a life
A thousand days till I'm 25 ..
Monday, November 17, 2008
Oh Calcutta ! My Calcutta !
Oh Calcutta ! My Calcutta..
Twenty years i've spent in thy shadows
Twenty years in this city i love ..
A city of dreams ..My home...
To me you are still the city ..
The city of Mother Teresa
The city where people still take a stand
Oh Calcutta ! My Calcutta ..
Please .. please don't lose your soul..
Many people ..and sometimes me...
Seem to think.. That you've changed ...
Left behind those glory days ..
Lost the charm that made you Great ..
You have changed in the past few years ...
With fancy cars riding down your broken streets
And glistening malls sprouting up in every nook and cranny ..
But have those winds of change..
Really taken away your nostalgic ways ?
But the thing that still remains the same...
In your pavements and in your walks ..
Are the undulating cries of an orphaned child
Who roams the streets ...the poor beggar still does cry
And searches for a place to live...
For something to eat.. For something..
To keep up their deadening beat ..
Oh Calcutta ! My Calcutta ...
Do you still answer their calls ?
Like the days of yore.. ?
Will you still take a stand ?
Lend 'em a helping hand ?
Oh Calcutta ! My Calcutta !
Please don't lose your name... your tag ..
Folks like me still look upto you for Hope ..
For us.. do remain the city we loved..
The city of joy ..With a heart ...
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I don't know how many of you see Calcutta this way..the way I do ...
This city ..our city is changing..has changed... just wish ,hope,pray...
we don't lose our identity ... that love we all share for this place...
and all that it stands/stood for ... in the quest for "modernization" ..
Let Calcutta be remain known as the city of Mother Teresa ... Where even the poorest can survive and die with an ounce of grace...Than a place where the rich grow richer and the poor get poorer... Lets not lose our identity in this quest of trying to become 'hip' ... Lets respect what we have stood for.... What this city has been known for... The place we grew up in...our HOME.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
A thank you ....to all my friends.....
Hello ...... whats up ?I am in the mood to thank all of you today...so thank u my friends. For being my friend and talking to me sometimes...whatever little we may converse ...thanks for being my friend...
It's just a gesture of thanks to you people who I dedicate my time to.... from now on i have promised myself that i will respect and have hope and faith in all of you.... just something that i want to pursue from this moment on....Just a new found respect for you .... the ones i dedicate my time to...and who dedicate their precious time to me.
For better or for worse....We are living in a very virtual world.Most of you I have not met in ages...Some of you i have met only for a few moments a few times ..caught a few glimpses of and exchanged only a few words in person with ... but haven't had had the need nor energy to strike up a conversation with then...at that point of time....Some of you i have never met in person...and will probably sadly never meet .... But all of you are my friends...because we have spend time ..whatever little that may be... exchanging messages or talking on the phone.... and some of you i have the pleasure of meeting everyday...of knowing ...others i have grown up with and feel humbled to still be in contact with you .......and still have the faith in our friendship to confide in each other .I thank you all.
But i know i will make mistakes.I have lost before....I can not promise you that i'll never lie to you.I will be a different person in a different situation in the years to come and so will you .I cannot promise you i will not start disliking you.We might not remain friends for ever..........We might have a misunderstanding and stop talking to each other.We may have a disagreement and not agree to disagree. We may for whatever reason lose the friendship we now share amongst us .We may lose contact ..because of our separate lives and not find the need to converse as I do with some of you now.... only time will tell.But,at this moment you are all my friends.
I know..these thoughts seem idealistic...even naive maybe.......but one can also call it HOPE .... the world has no more or very little of that these days.we don't trust anyone anymore rite ?? So i am wanting to take this leap of faith ..even if i lose ...i lose one of you because of the above mentioned reasons ... whats to lose..at least i'll b honest with myself ..that at one time we were friends...at this time i tried for a bond of trust ..of hope and dependence ...friendship.... ..which may get spoiled ... but at least at this very moment ... I am sincerely grateful...thankful to all of you.
It's just a gesture of thanks to you people who I dedicate my time to.... from now on i have promised myself that i will respect and have hope and faith in all of you.... just something that i want to pursue from this moment on....Just a new found respect for you .... the ones i dedicate my time to...and who dedicate their precious time to me.
For better or for worse....We are living in a very virtual world.Most of you I have not met in ages...Some of you i have met only for a few moments a few times ..caught a few glimpses of and exchanged only a few words in person with ... but haven't had had the need nor energy to strike up a conversation with then...at that point of time....Some of you i have never met in person...and will probably sadly never meet .... But all of you are my friends...because we have spend time ..whatever little that may be... exchanging messages or talking on the phone.... and some of you i have the pleasure of meeting everyday...of knowing ...others i have grown up with and feel humbled to still be in contact with you .......and still have the faith in our friendship to confide in each other .I thank you all.
But i know i will make mistakes.I have lost before....I can not promise you that i'll never lie to you.I will be a different person in a different situation in the years to come and so will you .I cannot promise you i will not start disliking you.We might not remain friends for ever..........We might have a misunderstanding and stop talking to each other.We may have a disagreement and not agree to disagree. We may for whatever reason lose the friendship we now share amongst us .We may lose contact ..because of our separate lives and not find the need to converse as I do with some of you now.... only time will tell.But,at this moment you are all my friends.
I know..these thoughts seem idealistic...even naive maybe.......but one can also call it HOPE .... the world has no more or very little of that these days.we don't trust anyone anymore rite ?? So i am wanting to take this leap of faith ..even if i lose ...i lose one of you because of the above mentioned reasons ... whats to lose..at least i'll b honest with myself ..that at one time we were friends...at this time i tried for a bond of trust ..of hope and dependence ...friendship.... ..which may get spoiled ... but at least at this very moment ... I am sincerely grateful...thankful to all of you.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
She lives in Heaven..
God took you to heaven and left me here -
In vain .... to remain ....
'Cause I'm nothing without you
Am half of what I used to be
You were my other half ...you completed me ...
We started as neighbors ...then friends...
Best friends turned lovers
Love which we thought would never end
Our joy to the world we could lend
You know to you I'd never lie...
And I wish I'd die... to meet you again ...
I hope ,oh how I hope ....
We shall meet again ...
Remember our first night ?
When we held each other so tight ....
From then on...
We never let each other out of sight
'Cause our love felt so right
Now I miss everything about you
The smell of your hair ,your scent..
The way you used to say my name...
And that oh so sweet smile..
That captured my heart ..... again and again .....
But with every moment that passes by
I long for you ...... and your oh so sweet smile ...
God was cruel to take you away
I've never forgiven Him to this day.
A flowing river .... that meets the sea ...
That's how I hope ..
You and me shall be ...
As I've loved you in life -
So in death shall I ..
From now till Eternity ...
We are one ... and always will be ..
You say that the river
finds the way to the sea
And as the river
you'll come to me
Beyond the borders
and the thirsty lands
You say that as river
As river
Love will come
Love
And I cannot pray anymore
And I cannot hope in love anymore
And I cannot wait for love anymore
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italics part is from a song..
Monday, November 3, 2008
Avenging Angels
There was silence.The initial sense of horror and trauma had subsided and he was slowly regaining his senses.His vision was blurred. The sky seemed to be covered in a cloud of dust and smoke.Smoke from the burning cars and the other not so inanimate fuels .He was too weak to stand up.The unbearable pain he felt ..that seemed to resonate from every fiber of his broken body made him curse God that he was still alive.He haplessly tried to grope his way amidst the rubble ..to his left..to his right .All around him was fire..smoke...and the charred remains of what had been .The painful heartbreaking cries of broken souls reached his aching ears.
But what about the others ...his two little Angels.... his two little girls .. Megha and Raina ... and his wife too..the woman he had spent the best years of his life with ... those three people who meant the world to him ..where were they ? Where they safe ?Slowly he felt numb...the ounce of remaining energy in his charred soul ...sapped away..he lost consciousness.
A few hours later ...he was to find out that he was the only survivor from the attack..the dropped bomb on the market had taken away those that meant most to him.This act of war had claimed what he had lived for.Whatever he had held sacred in life was gone...had been taken from him in an instant .His love of life had died with his two little angels and his wife. And at that very moment,he decided what course his life must take... only vengeance was on his mind....only vigilante justice would suffice.........
A later date - a different place...
The killer left the scene -
With no sign or trace...
Over the years he had become a shadow-
A fallen angel on broken wings...
His heart was cold ,His skin scarred -
This was just another job -
Which he had done ...
He was a killer now -
In full blood ..
There was nothing which could take him back
The bombs he planted ,the blood he shed ...
Was another reminder of that fateful day ..
When His Angels - a war did take away .
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Jus' a thot ..
Money can't buy you love...It can't buy you happiness...'Cause there r somethings in life ..which money jus can't buy ......For everything else ...there's ..well..money.
Monday, October 27, 2008
despondency ??
I have been meaning to write this for sometime now...Something about myself ...To give this blog a sense of personal belonging ... however weird that may sound ! But the thing is ..... I am quite reluctant when it comes to writing about me....I quite don't know what to write. I don't have a happening "massive si love story" happening. And I don't have other 'exciting' things happening around me either... Neither can I enlighten you with an in-depth take on love ,life,politics ,etc..etc . No I'm just an ordinary 21yr old engineering student..Supposed to be studying...Supposed to be 'industry ready' (hate that expression) in a couple of years ...But what i feel is an overwhelming ,all-pervading sense of having wasted my time with these things. I mean ... I don't want to know the logistics of what a tiny chip can do .... I don't want to know what autometa /automata is (i still don't know how that's spelled ......)How are these 'great' things gonna help me ? What purpose can me mugging up such @$%#% stuff possibly serve ? I have been living in a bubble.. Yes a bubble of hope ,expectation,desires and dreams ...an all too vulnerable,intangible entity waiting to burst at any given time....... and cause tangible harm .Feeling despondent to the core . **sigh**
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Lone Warrior
I am lone warrior
Loneliness is my strength
All i have to help me
Are my hands and my own head.
Knowing myself makes me strong
For no one do i need to long
Why should i try and know the world -
When the world is so fake ?
The world has nothing to give
And nothing can it take
Why should I trust in others ?
When I can trust in myself ?
Why in others -
Should i have faith?
Facing the cold breeze of reality..
Or under the red sky at night
Alone in the wilderness called life
Makes the blood flowing through my veins feel alive.
I have nothing to fear
Only me ... and my thoughts..
And if I can exorcise all my own demons
My pains and fears shall be lost
I don't need no one
For I believe in myself
And for myself alone ... shall I fight-
Shall I live .... shall I die ...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
A shielded us
Why must we continually prove to the world that we are strong ? Why must we constantly put up a shield to cover who we really are ? Why must we be hypocrites ? Lets accept it. We are all hypocrites aren't we ?Me ,you ...and everyone you know..and have ever known and sadly ...will ever know . We all lie. Everybody lies. Why is that the way it should be ? I ask you ...whats genuine ? Is that smile we portray always genuine ? Are all our emotions always genuine ? Do we always speak our mind ? Why must we go through life making compromises ? Why should we put on a fake smile...and say Thank you when sometimes what we really want to say is .... Fuck you. No - That intangible shield must stay ...People never want to let others know what they are really thinking of. It's our protection.A cover against the fears we hold .We are all so reluctant...so afraid .. too lazy .. to let that shield down. We are afraid to let new people into that circle of trust we hold.
Getting hurt ... failure is inevitable .Its how we to it react that counts. Most often what happens is we put ourselves in this shell....a box...behind this shield ..................and restrict ourselves from the world around. But unless one gets hurt,one can never grow.If you never try you'll never know who you truly are...What the hell are we afraid of ? Of hurt? Of betrayal ?
Must this shielded us always continue ? Must these subtle games of society always continue ? Maybe i'm being cynical ... but expressing you're true self with the world around is perceived as a sign of weakness........It exposes us and who we are...Without any cover for support to hide under....Open to getting torn apart by the envisioned evils of this world . Hence ,why we feel the need for this shield. This not so fake ... but a rather protected.....Shielded Us.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Injustice Accepted
"An injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere"
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I accepted an injustice
I let it all go ..
'cause sometimes in life
You just have to say NO.
Was i right to accept what i did?
To save my own skin ?
To remain silent through it all ?
When i wanted so badly to speak ?
You were the one in power ..
The one who held the reins ..
But i have no respect ,
For a character so suspect .
I don't know why you did it ?
Don't know why you lied ...
Maybe what you did was meant to break me
But believe me you couldn't even shake me.
No ..the humiliation you bestowed
Has only given me new Hope
For its people like you I hate
The ones who misuse power and spread hate.
I know I degraded myself
To have reacted the way I did
Out of sheer shock to your lies,
To myself I've now apologized.
Every coin has two sides
And from this now i know ,
Many things about you -
And few others who put on a show.
No - I've learned my lessons
What you did i may have forgiven
But believe me when I say that-
I shall never forget.
You're still the one in power ,
You may try to hurt me more
'm up for it ..For you I do not rate
You are nothing great .. enough said .
I accepted an injustice
I let it all go ..
'cause sometimes in life
You just have to say NO.
----------------------------------------------------
I accepted an injustice
I let it all go ..
'cause sometimes in life
You just have to say NO.
Was i right to accept what i did?
To save my own skin ?
To remain silent through it all ?
When i wanted so badly to speak ?
You were the one in power ..
The one who held the reins ..
But i have no respect ,
For a character so suspect .
I don't know why you did it ?
Don't know why you lied ...
Maybe what you did was meant to break me
But believe me you couldn't even shake me.
No ..the humiliation you bestowed
Has only given me new Hope
For its people like you I hate
The ones who misuse power and spread hate.
I know I degraded myself
To have reacted the way I did
Out of sheer shock to your lies,
To myself I've now apologized.
Every coin has two sides
And from this now i know ,
Many things about you -
And few others who put on a show.
No - I've learned my lessons
What you did i may have forgiven
But believe me when I say that-
I shall never forget.
You're still the one in power ,
You may try to hurt me more
'm up for it ..For you I do not rate
You are nothing great .. enough said .
I accepted an injustice
I let it all go ..
'cause sometimes in life
You just have to say NO.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Contrasting emotions.
To whosoever it may concern ,
The first I saw of you.I hated you.You came across as one of those spoiled proud ..'I-am -superior to you' sort.Then we got to talking.I changed my opinion of you.We spent hours talking.We became great friends.Or atleast I thought so.We were there for each other,like good friends should.Slowly,our friendship took a different turn . I had never wanted to feel this way. It just happened.And now ,I'm to blame. I lost you as a friend.I made a mistake.I can't take it back.What's done is done.It can't be changed.I wish i was wiser back then.But i would like to think that I've learned from the experience.Am a better man from it.Life goes on.But I will always think of you as a mistake...my mistake.
Lost Cause
A burning passion, a will to do good
He set out one day ,knowing he should
His cause was just,
But he wouldn't be the first
For many other passionate youth like him
Had had this thought of fighting for the same cause
A just and right cause -
But had failed to win.
He was too young ...
Too young to comprehend
But armed with valor and his noble wish,
Furious anger and a cold steely rage -
he thought he would win.
He kept working day and night
For His cause was right
He promised himself he wouldn't rest
Until he'd accomplished His quest.
The cause drained Him of life
It took away all his time
He kept working harder and harder
And prayed to God for a sign
After all..His cause was noble ..
'Twas just and right
He was up for the fight..
And needed no one by his side
Then suddenly it dawned on Him
What a fool he'd been !
The cause would be lost ..
His passion,though just ..
would all end in dust.
While striving and fighting..
He'd stopped living life.
Stopped all his pleasures..
And let The cause take all his time .
So he decided to start afresh
He'd be working for his quest
But now with friends -
For advise,support and rest.
Let his be a lesson
To all young souls
Fight in numbers...then maybe ...
A cause won't be lost no more.
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Sometimes in life , no matter how motivated or passionate one is about wanting to achieve something good .. its not possible without other's help .
cheers ! :-)
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
A Constant Change
The world was made this way...
Every new low is followed by a high
Someone's gain causes another pain
The ever delicate balance of nature must be maintained.
There's a serene joy in silence..
A tranquillity amidst cheers ..
A calmness precedes a storm
A change gives new form to one and all
Behind every great fortune
is a crime
At times for someone to live
Someone else must die.
In this world of upheavals..
You can't help but be strong
Keep your wits about you -
Don't let your thoughts drift too long .
True smiles are mixed with tears
There lies an excitement in fears
For every victory , sacrifices must be made
In every defeat there's something to be gained
For how long can one contemplate on a loss ?
Grieving is but for fools
When success can soon turn to failure
And every failure can serve as a boon
This world was made with power
Power and power alone ... No right.No wrong.
Rid yourself of worries..
For nothing can last too long.
Change is the essence of life
The only constant truth
It's the only thing that's certain
I say ... It's for good.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Cleansing Rust
'twas back in the August of 2001
That i felt one of God's greatest blessings
Which goes untold,is meant for all and one...
It doesn't matter if you're rich,poor or old
It's joy is something to behold !
Before you get all greedy with lust
Let me finish my verse first !
It's nature at it's best
Lest one should get no rest ..
For its after a day of tiring at work
Or because of trouble unknown...
That this blessing is such a great joy,
Such a great joy to behold !
It lifts one's spirits high ,
It relaxes the soul,body and mind ..
I don't know what to tell you my friend
I guess it's just God sent.
It's God way of saying ..
"I'm here ..you are not alone ,
Don't worry , It's not you , just life ..
All 's still fine ! I'll make it go by ! "
So damn soothing ..so refreshing and so dear
Its like psychic therapy ..
Makes all your troubles flee,
Only that it is for free
Sometimes it comes so sudden ..
Sometimes it's just there ..
The world around you feels so quietened..
There's nothing else that can quite compare..
With every drop pouring down on your head
It's like a word of wisdom, that goes unsaid
It drenches ..cleanses all stress and rust
And leaves you fresh ,happy and just ...
It takes away all sorrow and pain
God's tear drops never go in vain
The blessing i'm talking about is but only a walk
A simple walk .Alone in the rain.
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In memory of a walk down park street....a long time back...
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Self Doubt and U
There are three kinds of people in this world .Firstly ,are the one's you know instantly to avoid .Secondly,are the ones you talk to ....want to know more about ...be friends with .And then finally there's U.
U are the people that put up a false show ..a pretence of friendship and trust,only to break it all in time and leave one reeling in self-pity,doubt,hate anger,sorrow,pain and mistrust.U are the worst kind of people in the world.A disease..plague of society.The worst part is people like U never change.Everyday you live,i know U make someone else feel the same way I do about U....U take everything that's sacred ,good ... pure about a person...and use it to Ur own advantage....and when Ur through U leave 'em to rot...questioning oneself ........asking W-H-Y .
I know people like U have their talents.Others get attracted by it and mistake U as a 'friend'.They open themselves up to U .They 'trust' U...and U make full use of that 'trust'.Ur talents are nothing to admire.Cause what shit like U don't understand
is that with every betrayed soul U screw over....U make new enemies everyday...Friends turned Foes and it's all because of U.
People like U think they are popular.U take pleasure,even pride in the fact that U are popular.But U fool,U know what everyone says about the likes of U when Ur done playing Ur games with 'em? U think the ones U screw over don't warn their 'friends' about U ? Providence will catch up with shit like U .
Yet,I may be wrong........God above is a forgiving One. U may still be successful in life......and go about playing Ur games throughout Ur time.I may not be as successful as U.But at least i know I'll never be U .
Friday, October 10, 2008
It makes the world go round ...
Money Money Money
thats all there is to it honey
You know the thing that's damn funny ?
no one can do without it sunny ...
They all want a brand new car
To go with their new guitar
It's always one after one
It never stops until your dead
But HEY ... don't stop just because I said !!!
People tell me "Hey kid...
Where will you go now ?
What will you do ?
How much moolah will you earn when you turn 52 ?! "
It's sad really ..
The way we think ....
If you think about it
It's not the money we make
But the WAYS we make it in !
We strive ..we fight
we got this one shot ..
one shot..to make it right
To end up out of sight !!
So for more and more money ...
people let their animal instincts free ..
And oh no ...they all end up in misery !
But HEY ....... is that such a mystery ?
Come now ..don't be sad ...
I too ... shall soon go mad !
And be what others want me to be ..
For this love of money and money only !
I'll lie , I'll die...
Work myself so high ....
And get others down ..
Come now , don't frown !
Not for love ...
And neither for hate...
Just for that lovely paper note
They call money mate !
Now someone will tell me...
"Money's .... It's a shame !"
Come now.....
"Don't give me that
Too good bull-shit ! "
Money Money Money
thats all there is to it honey
You know the thing that's damn funny ?
no one can do without it sunny ...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Innocence Lost
This one speaks of a different strata of society ...a victim of circumstances.. an innocent soul dirtied by society ....Fate '.......
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On a cold foggy December night
Was born another child of India
He lay by his mother's bed
The room was dirty
The bed-sheet soiled ....
But little John didn't care
He was by his mother's side.
The days turned to night
And the weeks and months passed by,
He could walk and talk now...
the little One ....
The innocent child of India.
As He grew He soon found out
He wasn't the same as others around..
He wondered why .... He wondered how...
His father was never around.
He asked His mom , He asked her again
Where His father was ...
She couldn't reply..
She couldn't tell her dearest Son
That she was all He ever Had
That she didn't know who
His father was .
Little John's mother dreamt...
Not for herself... But for her Son
She saved all she earned,
Worked day and night for her only Son
She sent the Innocent One to primary school
She dreamt and dreamt that He would one day ..
Relieve her of all her pain,sorrow and wound
Hold a dignified corporate job ........
And all their troubles would be gone .
But Fate had other things planned .....
For mother and her begotten Son
The mother fell ill one day
And she wasn't to recover
Left the child ..Without support
To stand alone .
Little John's world came crashing down.....
Where was he to go now ?
What was he to do ..
When he'd lost the only person He ever knew .
Those days were tough..
After Independence ..
And little Indian town's like John's
Didn't have place for orphaned ones.
The still innocent child,
Roamed the streets.. in wide eyed wonder
And the only thing he still had ,
Was what was within Him .......
His heart ,His soul,His innocence ..
Which was soon to be no more !
One day the boy found a man,
That went by the name of Uncle Sam,
Who gave homeless kids like Him
jobs to do ... and a place to live.
He was wealthy .. He took Him in .
And made Him realise the jobs to do ..
And ways to do it in !
Soon the boy ,like others of Sam's clan...
Went about stealing ,robbing ....
And breaking bones .. with sticks and stones.
It wasn't little John's fault .....
What was he to do ?
After-all it was cruel Fate
That had made him a tool.
The years flew by and..
Little John was little no more.
Over the years.. He had climbed the ladder
In uncle Sam's clan .....
And had eventually become.. his right hand man .
But still John thought... of His childhood days
And the time He spent under His mother's loving care
And what He was now ..A shadow of what was to be...
Of Hope turned Despair .... A self betrayed ..
And wanted to change ... And regain ..
His lost innocence.
He wanted to leave ,He thought he still had time ...
To change ..To become the man his departed mother,
Had always wanted Him to be.
"This place is dead for me" - He said .
But alas ,before He knew ,
The law ..caught up with Uncle Sam, his clan ...
And their crimes.....
On the day of the trial ,
before a packed courtroom ....
Sat John, He would be made to answer ..
For His sins pretty soon .
Before the judge read out the sentence
He asked John ,"Do you have anything to say ? "
John just smiled ... and replied ,..
"It wasn't me Sir ...
It was Fate ....
That took my innocence away ! "
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Bolshoi Booze
Before you get all excited about the unusual naming of this post let me tell you that this post is precisely about ..............Nothing ! That's right .... i'm writing this just to kill ' precious ' time. Time ... that all important commodity ... that no one seems to have any of .
As much as i hate to admit it .... Yes , i was a science student for my plus 2 , and yes i did spend hours mugging up back then .You know how people say ... Time changes things ... "Give things Time Anindyo ... things will change " . . Time changes nothing . Changing things... doing things changes things...changing your thoughts and actions changes things ....It's pretty simple really .... If you want to achieve something you've never achieved before , you got to do things you've never done before. Its not rocket science !
So ,what should i be doing now so that i spend my time usefully ...so that i don't waste time ? Should i be up and about working.... changing things ... looking at things from a whole new perspective ? Should i make sure i'm not 'wasting' my time ? Now ... What does one mean by Wastage of Time ? I don't know .... can you explain please ????? What does Society ... the System ... expect out of us young minds ... should we work ourselves to the ground? Should we fall in line ? Should we become another brick in the wall ?
I love to think . I completely , totally , absolutely love to Think ! And what i figure is every moment of every day you spend .... adds upto ... culminates into the person you are going to be the very next . So what i really really want to do is just be happy ... to be at peace with myself and then the world will be at peace with me ... Happiness is all that matters , all there is to life , all that is important .... i just want to treasure it .. embrace it ...
John Lennon (i know, i know ... all my idols are either old or dead ) once said , " the hours you spent doing nothing ... maybe weren't wasted at all " . So thats my message from this post .. be happy ... don't worry ! Now i can stop with my rant .
Sunday, October 5, 2008
darling pretty ....
It makes you Fly
It takes you High
It makes you Laugh
And makes you cry....
It lasts Long
It takes Time
To forget and accept
All thats gone by ..
As i long to become,
The Man i want to be
Your Memory ..
crashes down on me .
Of the words spoken
The promises made
Of the dreams shattered ...
And the tears shed .
I know i must move on
I know I must be strong
I know you were not the one for me.
But still i wonder...
And still i know .... that someday,
"You'll be a star
In someone else's sky
but why why why ....
why ..... cant it be mine ???? "
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didn't really put much thought into this post ... it was really a very instantaneous ,disorganised thought .... anyways .... last four lines taken from one of my favourite songs .. cheers ! ;-)
Saturday, October 4, 2008
smoke makes the man more profound.....
A couple of weeks back, i don't remember exactly where that i had come across this 'amusing' statement .... but it certainly got me thinking .See, i used to be one of those 1st year engineering students who found the smell of fags so offensive , nauseating ......to the point of disgust . But one fine day ,about an year back .... out of i don't know what ....... maybe boredom ,maybe curiosity,frustration or just maybe some similar opinion as the name of this post ..... i figured I'll try one ... just one ... it can't hurt rite ? oh well .... about an year on ... and one wills classic has turned into a packet of Marlboro's . And now i guess , i can go on and become even more PROFOUND . ;-)
blog ?? hmm.......
A certain Mr Aamir khan names his dog after a certain someone else... a certain Big B ... calls someone something else on his blog as well...Actually, the first time i heard the word 'blog' was from a certain female friend ... "hey .. check out my blog ! "....... now being the lazy,uninformed guy i am ... i admitted i had never heard of the word ... she explained how it was sort of an online diary ....
"hmm...... i thot " ..... now , this act of blogging ... sharing one's daily random inconsequential thoughts with other equally bored, confused minds didn't seem too exciting to me .... but hey ... after the disillusioning experience of two years in an engineering college..... and two more years left to go ........ and having spend loads of time thinking about thinking ... here i am ! oh ... and i hear many make a decent amount just by blogging ..... depending the number of ' hits' one gets ...ahem... rather , one's BLOG gets .... well ... i'm not here to make money .. just to share my ramblings ...
cheers ! ........ ;-)
"hmm...... i thot " ..... now , this act of blogging ... sharing one's daily random inconsequential thoughts with other equally bored, confused minds didn't seem too exciting to me .... but hey ... after the disillusioning experience of two years in an engineering college..... and two more years left to go ........ and having spend loads of time thinking about thinking ... here i am ! oh ... and i hear many make a decent amount just by blogging ..... depending the number of ' hits' one gets ...ahem... rather , one's BLOG gets .... well ... i'm not here to make money .. just to share my ramblings ...
cheers ! ........ ;-)
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