despondency ??

I have been meaning to write this for sometime now...Something about myself ...To give this blog a sense of personal belonging ... however weird that may sound ! But the thing is ..... I am quite reluctant when it comes to writing about me....I quite don't know what to write. I don't have a happening "massive si love story" happening. And I don't have other 'exciting' things happening around me either... Neither can I enlighten you with an in-depth take on love ,life,politics ,etc..etc . No I'm just an ordinary 21yr old engineering student..Supposed to be studying...Supposed to be 'industry ready' (hate that expression) in a couple of years ...But what i feel is an overwhelming ,all-pervading sense of having wasted my time with these things. I mean ... I don't want to know the logistics of what a tiny chip can do .... I don't want to know what autometa /automata is (i still don't know how that's spelled ......)How are these 'great' things gonna help me ? What purpose can me mugging up such @$%#% stuff possibly serve ? I have been living in a bubble.. Yes a bubble of hope ,expectation,desires and dreams ...an all too vulnerable,intangible entity waiting to burst at any given time....... and cause tangible harm .Feeling despondent to the core . **sigh**