random post........

I don't know how the past few weeks have passed me by . Have been dwindling and sleeping away my time. The lazy feelings that comes with being a procrastinating bong,the laid back calcutta feel and the energy-sapping summer afternoons of cal seem to have gotten a grasp over me. Time seems to fly by so quickly ...too quickly .
New Year's seems like yesterday and April is knocking on the door.
Nothing much seems to have changed though . The traffic is just as loud , the streets just as dirty ... the people just as diverse.
Silence has been a loyal companion to me over the years . And its something i can repose complete trust in .It has brought me out of the madness ...the silliness of people around and my own .
The lack of opportunity here in this city i love....is dreadful to say the least. Calcutta has its nuances ..it's old world charm .... mixed with the poverty ,the dirt ...the madness .... and it takes an equally mad soul to find reason in this world of the mad M and the bad B.
National elections are around the corner ...and the political circus has well and truly gotten underway.With political backstabbing...dirty underhand deals and the usual fanfare that accompanies an Indian election the news channels are having a field day .
A government will be formed nonetheless ,with an able or not-so-able Prime Minister governing over his/her 'cause-driven' disciples.Yes the madness shall continue ...
whoever may come to power ....BUT .... what change does it bring to the country ..if any ? Does the common man really give a damn who talks his/her non-sense at the top... when there is nothing but deprivation and want all around ?
It better not to think too big . Better not to worry about the big picture.Concentrate on my own life. Making a living for myself . That's enough for me . That's what everybody does.
What if the system is screwed up ? I am a part of it. Too small and insignificant an object. So are we all. Roll on.
Calcutta .... dirt ... poverty .... madness... so what ?
kolkata ache bhai .... aar calcutta nei

Fool... Fool...Fool

"Everyone dreams of a love lasting and true
But you and I know what this world can do
So lets make our steps clear that the other may see
And Ill wait for you
If I should fall behind
Wait for me"

A lapse of reason.... foolish yet heartfelt
An Utopia it is ..I know ...
No worries when this thought is with me ...
A brighter Yesterday,today and tomorrow

I drift through the greens ...
The Broken fields ..mountains ..oceans ...
The vivacity of life enriches me...

So foolish ,yet kind ...Can't I hold this feeling forever ?
No broken sigh..... .
I love this Audacity of Hope.
Please Life... To me ...be kind.

Then I lose the thought .... I don't know how ...
Don't know why .
Who made me lose Hope ?
It's like i've taken a few steps back again.
Maybe...I don't want to get hurt anymore...
Broken expectations has dealt me a tragic blow.

This is the only me you get ...
The one who depends on himself...
No one else.
I am mine.
This Life is mine.

Yet,I fall into the trap again.
This expectation from myself...
A foolish mentality ...
I dream in airs ... without a trace of logic or sense.
I dream big ..yet do not know the work to be done hence.

So .. I pray to Thee ...
The Higher power above ...
Bless me with logic , love and good sense.

"We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we are walking a hand should slip free
Ill wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me"

May God Bless .
Goodnight. :-)

Blackbird

Shattered glass strewn across the floor
A conglomeration of mismatched images galore
Wallowing cry from distance..condescending me from afar
The black shore , the black tide ..where do I belong ?
A silent night...nothin stirs... I can't sleep
My head weeps ....My nightmares are too loud ..
Echoing cries come back to haunt me...
Glimpses of HOpe,Faith,Love.. Illusions all ..
The trust is gone... Cynicism is my right ..
Yes Cynicism...And hatred for it all...
I want to escape..but hands are tied...
No am stuck here... With this voice in my head ..
It won't let me sleep... I cry out....
I try to weep... the tears have dried...
I cannot but my anger vent ... I don't know
What cause is this ?? ... who had this anger sent ?
A black bird..comes flying by ... I look into her hollow eyes.
Am laughing...I mock myself.....
The BLAckBird has set me free.....
COme over to the dark side.

short film ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onj_ncbdKSs

the best... :-)

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm,
There's a golden sky,
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind, Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

YNWA

Mediocrity sucks

Some people are awesome apart ..and sadly... morons together.
Loathing in hypocrisy . Searching for something i can never find.
Why can't I get my head out of the clouds for once? ?
Mediocrity sucks.
Want to leave this place...and run ... move far away ...
I appreciate what I got here ... I love calcutta ... Always have.
But can't help but feel I am being held back here ...
A different flavor of life beckons...
Is calling out to me everyday ...
In what hue ...
In what shape and form ...
I can channelize my talents I do not know
...But I KNOW i shall never know unless I leave this place .
I don't want my growth to be stunted and my life's decisions molded by my surroundings.
I have to try .
I have a dream.
I do not know what it is other than ...
a long-standing urge for FREEDOM.
This never experienced yet unrelenting desire .... is killing me.
I need to wake up .
Tired of people telling me I'm no good .
That i can't .
Assuming what i shall be...
What I can achieve .
TO hell with them.
Never achieved shit ...Don't assume for what I can or cannot do.
Mediocrity sucks.
I CAN ..



I CAN ..



I CAN ..




I HAVE TO ..



'cause Mediocrity sucks.

The ride before the fall

Times have changed and times are strange
Here I come, but I aint the same....


Lotsa things ... hav happened during the past week... been busy filming a documentary.
Yes it may not be too good ... but i enjoyed making it.... have never stayed up till 6.15 am in the morning before.... enjoyed writing..narrating...camera work n editing... yes it was fun .......... i will make another one in a few months hopefully.

Human nature... ah well... what to say ......... hate college .... (yes again) .


Times gone by seem to be
You could have been a better friend to me