Better Late......

Don't let your circumstances get you down ..
Don't get affected by other people's mentality ... cause you can't change 'em
.........
Things take their time ....hold on
You can't change your destiny.... neither .....
shirk your responsibilities.
what's meant to happen........ will happen .
Don't think too much .... you can't change anything by thinking ...so stop.



Above are glimpses of conversations.... innuendoes ...... i've been fed over the past couple of days........
Whats new ? Nothing.
Actually worse than nothing.
People around me keep moving on.
Everyone... i seem to be talking with seems to be doing something ...
Something....
Changing.... Evolving ....
Nurturing .... dreams, hopes and aspirations and taking positive strides towards their fulfillment.

Yes,another semester has started in bong land .
Surrounded by an all too well known nepotistic bengali mentality .....accompanied with the rather new ... the rather dull... the rather unrealistic.... the rather vague......the rather unclear views of a so-called changing city ..and its political landscape.

The overawing feeling i get is that i am late ....I have missed the bus .
I did not do enough.Did not be true to my feelings and stand up for them enough when it was needed.I did not work hard enough . Think seriously enough ... Supported myself enough ...the list is endless.

I take longer to realise some things than others would.
My good friends will tell you i am an astoundingly horrible judge of people.
I am delusional...I am childish in many ways.... Too straight and emotional ...to be the one i aspire .... Mostly ..Above all.... I am always late....

Those voices again keep telling me ....

It's better late than never............

at this moment ... I feel ... I would better be dead than late...

Signing off...