No matter what you say
This truth i know
The me you see is a cold disguise
A mask i wear ... that shall swallow me whole
You say I'm a pleasure to talk to
But the pleasantries we exchange
is fake... I'm playing you ..
All i do is play a role
That shall swallow me whole
I shall never live upto your expectations
cause what you think of me is a lie
It's only a disguise i put on to use you
When behind your back i mock and ridicule
I laugh with you ,seem nice and decent and put on a show
To make you feel good about tomorrow
When what I really think of you is that you're sick
I fool myself ,I'm digging a hole
My hypocrisy and lies shall swallow me whole
I laugh at you.. mock you behind your back
When all i'm really doing is burying myself in lies
Nothing i say to praise is genuine
All my compliments fake
They are lies to gain your trust ..
right now this confession i make
They are only lies , Only a blind disguise
I'm digging a hole today
One that shall swallow me whole...someday
I confess i'm ashamed for not liking you more
I confess i'm ashamed for that look of trust i see in your eyes
The trust i break everyday when you turn away .
In my attempts to play with you... I'm killing myself ..I know ..
I'm sorry but this disguise has overtaken me..i can't let go .
I wish I could stop, I wish I played with you no more..
For I don't want to pretend anymore
I wish i had the courage to tell you face to face
I don't like you ..i've never liked you... my friend
But this mask is me now .. this is me
My sins are unforgivable ..I shall have to pay
I feel nothing really matters ..so i play with you instead
No matter how much care you show..The trust and respect you give
It won't stop me from digging this hole ...
Of hypocrisy and lies which someday shall swallow me whole.
Friend ,this is my confession
I'm telling you this today
This is me ..
the one you call your friend
I'm unworthy of your respect and love
I'm unworthy of your time
I'm telling you all this because.. MAYBE
MAYBE YOU FEEL THE SAME.
MAYBE YOU ARE THE SAME .
please let me know .......
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4 comments:
What should i say?? words failing...just one request...keep penning.. well done pal. :)
One thing to say mate,absolutely right.I know these thing had came out of your personal experience,which was mine also.Anyways what i feel is,it is always better to get a hard hitten lesson as early as possible in your life,so that u can face any challenge in the rest of your life.Everyone is not as simple unlike you and me.Cheers,mate...
@kunal ..... its more of a generalization of my nature mate ..
but concern is appreciated .
something very deviating from ur other posts...nonetheless..well crafted.showed the grey side of u
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